Feeling Lost

    I have been thinking about this for a while now, so I thought I would do a post.  I just feel like I need to talk about this, but it is easier to form in writing rather than talking in person.  I am feeling very lost in my final year of college.  I do not know exactly what I want to do after I graduate and I am feeling a little out of place lately.

    At a very young age, I knew I wanted to be dentist, well at least I thought I wanted that to be my career.  For as long as I can remember until I was in middle school, I had my future figured out.  I wanted to be a dentist so badly; I would write my dentist little love notes every single time I went to get my cleaning.  My notes really came in handy when it came time to pick out prizes (I always got more than the other kids).  Then one day I decided I did not want to be a dentist anymore, probably around the time I got braces because the orthodontist was not my favorite person.  Why would he be?  He made my mouth hurt every time I went for a visit...

    After I decided that I did not want to be a dentist anymore, I wanted to be a variety of things when I grew up.  Some of those careers included being a baker, cook and fashion designer.  I loved to cook and bake as a child, but I was advised to find a job that was more steady.  While I loved to draw and doodle clothing designs, it was not something I kept up.  There I was, back to the drawing board, not having a direction of what I wanted to do when I was a "big girl"

    I applied to most colleges as a communication or business major, but I did not really have an idea of what I wanted to do after graduation.  A few office jobs and two jobs in retail later, I am still not sure exactly what I want to do... You could say that I am feeling lost and confused.  I know that I love social media, I love people, I love fashion, I love to write and I love makeup... These are things that I have found a passion for in life. 

    I graduate in just eight months, which I know will pass by quickly.  It is very scary to think that I do not have a set path. Recently, I have found myself asking why I did not choose a major with a set career.  The future is very scary, but it is also sooner than we know it.

    I planned to have an internship this semester, but only a few stuck out to me when I was looking for jobs. Some places got back to me for interviews and others did not.  It has been about two months since I started applying for internships and I am still waiting to talk to some companies.  I know once I get some more hands on experience, I will be able to find my way to what I want to do with my life. But if you are wondering, my dream would be for my YouTube channel to take off.  I would love to start a career of that because it is something that I love to do everyday.  I am constantly inspired everyday by the vloggers I watch. That is my dream, what is your dream?

    Anyways, that is my rant for today... I will talk to you guys very soon!

XO,

MP